NOW WHAT DO I DO?

"No one slips a mile at a time.  What happens is we slip an inch at a time and 
fail to pay attention."

Earnie Larsen

How often have you said to yourself, "This time it's going to be different."  So you make some changes, take action, and things are different - for awhile.  But ultimately, you fall back into the old patterns.

If it gets bad enough, you're eating again.  You've gained all of the weight back...plus more.  You can't bend to tie your shoes and your knees are in such bad shape, there is pain whenever you try to use them.  You're huffing and puffing when having to walk any kind of distance, none of your clothes fit because of the weight gain and you can't get past the isles in the grocery store (where your binge foods are) without stocking up.  Oh, let us not forget those late night binge runs.

OLD MESSAGES

What is it that we, as addicts, say to ourselves when something good happens?

"Don't talk about it."

Why?

"Because it will go away."

What is it we say to ourselves when something bad happens?

"I knew this would happen; things aren't ever going to change; why do I even try?" (Or something similar to this.)

Does this sound familiar?  It was the message that played in my head for years.  I was afraid to share anything positive (and sometimes negative) happening in my life.